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[Oct. 16th, 2004|10:59 pm] |
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i hate it when everything seems to be building up. Lifes just kind of crappy and i don't know how to deal with everything. My self-esteem is at an all time low, so here comes the old routine all over again. No matter what i do differently my life repeats itself. I'm sick of being stuck on this unpredictable and endless roller coaster. Why can't things be easier? Why can't things change? I just wish i could change things, figure things out, had control over something and could be happy with myself. Yet all those wishes seem impossible to grasp. Everytime i even get close they become less and less tangible. I just don't know what to do or how i can deal with any of this. I wish things would just chill out. Unfortunately it doesn't seem like thats going to happen anytime soon. Eh oh well, i'll survive. |
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[Sep. 18th, 2004|11:31 pm] |
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I was at this awesome worship thing with all the youth groups in my city, when i realized that it was the 18th of September. So, officially i am 17 and 1/2 today... which means more importantly that its Amandrah's birthday... so, HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY AMANDAH!!!
At revolution we were getting ready to pray, and my youth leader Jason told us all to hold hands. Well, i was sitting next to the boy of this couple which i really don't know, so i felt very awkward. That awkwardness must have shown on my face, because my friend Becca looked over and started laugh, when i realized how weird my facial expression must have been i started laughing too. The poor boy just stiffened and i felt bad. Now, however, that i look back on it, that was pretty darn funny. The end.
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[Sep. 17th, 2004|05:26 pm] |
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Hey guys. Mara says hi to everyone... I do have an update, sorry to say its not a pleasant one. Ashlee went to the doctors and she lost the baby... She's pretty upset but she's viewing it as God's plan. She and i both wanted to thank everyone for their prayers. My whole family and i really appreciate it.
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Rest in peace baby Sapienza. |
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